Birthday Bliss

So all in all I cannot complain about my birthday. It was an early morning thanks to the work holiday party being the night before and then having to work at 9 the next day :( but it was okay. Megan made me a delicious cherry chip cake and gave me 2 gifts the book The Host by Stephanie Meyer ( author of Twilight ) and a toasted vanilla reed diffuser! Wendy gave me a soy candle and a bag of my fav candy. After work we were off to Ricki Jo's for dinner with the fam and apparently every one at work. Got some awesome gifts from everyone, Rob's mom Anne got me a mask in Cuba when they went so I was excited about that! Rachel and Matt got me a reusable shopping bag (they know my weakness) and a Michaels gift card! My little brother got me the new Harry Potter movie, Kath and Jay got me Dirty Dancing, and my very own pumpkin spice soap ( no more smelling Diana's hands ) Mom and Dad got me my very own new iPod Touch EEEEEEEEE I am so excited for my new iPod I really needed one so Yay! Rob got me a new set of speakers for my iPod and my laptop and they are adorable and orange! Oh and then the little bro gave me a 25 dollar iTunes card!

Now all I need is an iPod docking station oh and these iPod covers so cute ,http://www.ideal-case.com/ipod/touch-ii/demon-series/circle-series-silicone-case-for-ipod-touch-ii-orange-2.html

The pic's of the gifts are on FB

Love you guys
nickle

And I was worried about Wednesday

I began this post at 12:00 pm on Thursday, it is now 1:30 am on Friday

Okay so it looks like any blog posts I am going to be making will be a day late as I am way to exhausted at night to blog :P

Yesterday was Wednesday, after my very long night on Tuesday it was to be an enjoyably relaxing day and for the most part it was! Around 1ish Master and I went to Niagara on the Lake with my mom to have tea and Banoffee pie in the Little Irish Tea Shop that we love!! After that I received a text from Suzy as we were going to be hanging out later that day, she asked me if I was interested in going to a pagan woman's circle, now anyone who knows me well knows that I have been struggling with my "religious beliefs" or should I say lack there of and I have been looking at all religions of the world to figure out if and where I belong in the world. Pagan was something I was immediately drawn to as it identifies with nature and my Norse gods, so I was a little nervous when Suzy asked but after talking to Master he knew I should go as it is something that I was interested in and he figured I would enjoy it, so I agreed.

Suzy came to get me at 5:30 and we went out to shoppers, then Starbucks to talk for a while before we picked up Tasha one of Suzy's friends and might I say a mighty cool girl she is! Then we were off to Rae's house to have the women's circle. Now Runa is the woman I know Suzy goes to for help and she is very close to her and I know Rae and Runa are close but what I didn't grasp was how close Rae and Jen (Masters ex girlfriend and the mother of Aiden one of my awesome step son's!!) are. So I was slightly apprehensive of the evening and what might be said to me. Arrived at the house and met a large number of very friendly ladies all of them quite open and eager to accept people in, I liked that a lot. The ritual that night was an ancestor based one (sorry Suzy but I don't know the terminology yet) and it brought up some very heavy emotions but ones I had been suppressing so it was nice to finally let them out! Also received a message from Runa and I will need to do some deep thinking and soul searching regarding that tidbit.

All in all it was a great time and I am eager to learn more about Suzy and her pagan beliefs!

well I am off to bed so I can write another day late post tomorrow!

nickle
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Tuesdays were long, and hard, but a very fun ride!

Oh so yest I understand it is now Wednesday as I type this but there was no way I was staying up any later than I did to post this and now that I think about it the earliest I was at a computer and able to post was at 3am this morning so regardless it would have been Wednesday anyway so neah!

Anyhoo Tuesday was a very long but good day, we went to Value Village and I found a sleeping beauty barbie to transform, and I found a butter dish! Rob found some books he was looking for but not looking for they just happened to be books he had wanted, Yay books.

We came home and I had a massive headache and wanted to die so I took a shower for an hour ( heh it rhymes) and managed to kick my headache but I was still a little grumpy, good thing he has to put up with me muah ha ha ha!

Went to Perkins for the munch and got a few surprises, first off Evan showed up and I was so excited I have not seen him since he went to Bradford for his culinary placement so yay Evan is back, then who walks in but Neil and Jess I thought I had won the people lottery!

After the munch which ends at the dumb time of 10 Neil, Jess, Rob, Evan, and I went to Timmie's to continue our fun for all!

And it is there that we stayed till 2:15 am, now having said this Neil had to still drive himself and Jess back to Toronto and he had to work at 8 or 9 am eeek (sorry Neil but I can't help but get carried away in your presence )

We drove Evan home and then came home ourselves, I went to bed around 4 and Master well I am pretty sure he never went to bed till 8am ish yah it's going to be a fun Wednesday now!!

nickle
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Mondays

Alright so I need to finally make some decisions and commitments to myself.

First of all I need to work on my self esteem and my personal appearance, now I am not saying that I am huge and fat and need to get lypo but I am not in the shape I want to be and I could stand to lose about 45-55 pounds to stay healthy.

Second I need to get my credit on track and keep it that way. Eventually I am going to need a bigger house and there are some nice ones in Kaths Co-op, so once credit is on track I could get in there as we pay our bills :P

Third I have got to get better at keeping my life and my house clean and organized, I cannot stand the mess and yet I thrive in chaos (weird I know)

I have been reading blogs and falling in love with the bloggers and then it hit me, I am not going to find happiness in my own life if I am always dreaming of another, so I have decided to focus on all the good things I have, My friends, My Family, My wonderful step-Kids, and My amazing Fiance!

Heavy thinking for a Monday Afternoon!

nickle xoxoxoxox

Sappy

Okay going to be a sappy slave for a minuet. Master is going to London Ontario for 3 days and I am stuck here and I miss him already, even though he is sitting in the room as we speak.


Oh sappy nickle sometimes you bug me sometimes, and sometimes I like you, this is neither those times.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
nickle

Saturday thoughts

You know what sucks....Life. Yeah thats probably going to depress a bunch of people but it's my blog and I will whine if I want to :P Anyways back to how I feel life sucks, I have managed to keep my house clean..ish, I have began the slippery slope of exercise (my legs are killing me), and on general I have been eating better not the best but better, and yet I still feel depress and want to cry 80% of the time and I can not for the life of me associate this with anything. Friends of mine are going through way way worse thing than my silly moods and they are not being all mopey, no they are grabbing life by the reins, smacking it on the ass and riding through it like a fucking pro and yet here I am going "oh boo hoo hoo nickle is sad" ugh sometimes I hate myself even more than normal. Seriously I am exactly the type of person I would smack in the head.

On to bigger and better things, I think. I am off to the states with my happy cohort Kath and her little terror Diana (terror in a good way people not negative), we will be traveling to the lovely land of Aldi's, Target, Wal-Mart, and Wegmans!! I am hoping I get VTO so we can go sooner rather than later as I have my littlest stepson over for the weekend. The house while in mild disarray has been maintained to a point, however since the washer decided to die two weeks ago I really need to finish the laundry and get everything packed away properly.

My wedding is fast approaching and I am coming to the realization that in ways of preparation I have done......zilch! Okay yes I have spoken to the travel agent to finalize pricing and they are currently trying to work out a better deal than what was offered to us in the beginning but it is still a bother that I have not done the following: Dress shopped with anyone let alone my Maid of Honor, finalized how I am going to approach my grandfather regarding the fact I am getting married but I don't want his wife there, and how I am paying for this.

Ugh hello stress welcome back!

Well I have to get back to work not ( barf) look forward to seeing you soon Kath. Let me know if me taking VTO is not going to work!!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

nickle

slipping

I feel like I am drowning in a sea of slavery and there is no one to throw me a life preserver, I will let the tide slip over my head for now and just see what happens as i sink....