I feel like a darn tree..........

Hey,

So I have decided there is something about myself that really annoys ......well ME! I am so sick of "turning over a new leaf" I really am, I don't know how many countless times I have said the whole " oh I am going to eat better", "oh I am going to start exercising more", and my favorite " I am going to start budgeting and liking myself more" HAHAHAHA. Now don't mistake my rant that these things do not mean something to me, because deep down they do. I would like to eat better, work out, and budget there is no mistaking that the original idea is something that I can completely identify with....but execution that's where I seem to fall behind :)

This is not going to be a very long post as it is 10:30 at night and the one and only goal I seem to have managed to be successful with is going to bed at a decent time but I have decided that I am going to do one thing.... "I will no longer attempt to set ridiculous goals for myself, and will instead adopt a positive 'let the chips fall where they may' attitude"

Alright off to bed now!!

xoxoxoxoxo
Nickle

p.s. A very very happy anniversary to my best friends Mike and Suzy Roy!!

Back again?

Hello again!

It has once again been a while between my posts and I am going to try and keep up with posting! Changes in my life have not really been around, Master and I have been discussing our rules and our communication has increased like ten fold. About a week ago we were getting groceries and I decided to broach the subject of where we were going in terms of our M/S relationship. We have still been practicing but there has been a relaxation in terms of the rules and the rituals that we had been following, so I decided that it was time to get back into the discussion of our rules. I wrote up pages about the things that I liked and the different rituals that I would like incorporated into our relationship, I gave it to Master on Thursday of last week and now he is going to look over it and then get back to me about what he would like to incorporate. Even though we have a M/S relationship we still like to discuss things like this so that were both happy, Master says that if he were to make the rules on his own and not give me a chance to give my input then it would be harder to enforce them since he would have to deal with a very cranky nickle!!

Well I am going to continue watching Toy Story 3 since it is super distracting!!

See ya later!

nickle

Random post

Hello there again blog with whom I neglect like a poor fish (I killed a LOT of fish as a child), so my complete randomness aside I did say I was going to try and post more here and since I am currently residing on the couch accomplishing nothing at all I figured now would be a good time to post, and away we go!!

Work: On the work front there have not been too many spectacular changes, I am coming to understand that as the only female in the training department I am the one that everyone vents to. Now this isn't a bad thing for the most part as a fellow human being (or so they say) I understand the need to vent about things that are bothering you at work and it is nice to vent to someone in the same dept. as they will understand whats happening, however when I have to hear the same thing over and over and over I cannot take it!!! So I have basically taken the silent listener approach when the same issues are brought up and I think they are starting to notice!! (P.S I also don't want to hear about who it is your fucking, and I don't want to hear about what your about to do in the restroom yes I am one of the guys but as my Tits show I am still a girl!) Oh also I got a semi promotion I am going to become the training coordinator so I am super excited about that!! (I told Rob it means I need more stationary :p)

Home: Rob and I are doing awesome if I do say so myself ..... and I do :D and the boys are as always fantabolous! Connor brought up his Math grade and Anthony as always has an A in almost every class, Aiden is my adorable big cheeked liar right now (he is in the lying phase).

Me: I am working on myself and my relationship and I hope to keep working, I am helping Rob with his food portioning and were both trying to be more active. I am also trying to hang out with my friends and family more to stay connected, don't want to end up in a slumpy slump! I am crafting a bunch more, mostly with embroidery thread and making bracelets and wrapping my cords with it!

On the hanging with my peeps note, Kath and I went out on Saturday and got tattoo's, hers was planned mine not so much!



The pink is for my Grandma, Purple for Granny, and Blue for Grandad Love you all Rest in Peace! ( or kick ass as zombies either way <3)

Today Suzy and I kept up our new get together of after work coffees and chats, I have to say it was fun beans!

That is about it for now honestly but I hope I can write some more while I am on vacation!

Nickle
xoxoxoxox

Wednesday February 2nd 2011

Yesterday was an okay day overall. I had to get up and go to work but they were calling for really crappy weather so I asked Daddy if he would be kind enough to drive me to work, and he was awesome and did so!! Work was pretty good, my class is doing well with the knowledge, there may be some issues between the students in the class and the main trainer but I am trying to be observant and see what I can do to assist both sides! The weather wasn't even that bad honestly the roads were all pretty clear and although it did get crappy it wasn't that huge of a deal, having said that I know people who hate driving in the snow and would have loved to stay home like they did!! I have been having issues with my wisdom teeth on my right hand side of my mouth, I have been teething (my class called it that) so I have had a wisdom tooth coming through and it hurts like hell! I think yesterday may have completed it's process as it does not hurt as bad today!! After work we went home and Daddy had me divide up the meat from grocery's like I was supposed to, then he made dinner (yummy pasta)! I played Fairy Tale Fights again last night and enjoyed the blood strewn mayhem!!! Master went to take a shower so I went to bed with moose and cuddled with Master until I feel asleep!! (oh yah and of course we did some naughty things :P) until tomorrow!

Love
nickle
xoxoxoxo

The Weekend

So this weekend was the Phoenix Niagara Play Party at their new venue ....... A freaking church! Prior to the night Master and I had discussed my own evolution in my lifestyle, part of this is that I feel like there is a side to myself that is a "Little" now for those who don't understand what that means I will try and explain what I consider being a "Little", in my mind my Little persona is not a baby or even a child, I am more or less who I am now but with the ability to let everything go, even that is a weird description that I don't think fit's, huh okay trying again I enjoy colouring, playing with my dolls, sleeping with my moose, and cuddling with Daddy. None of that is like other "Littles" I have come across which is why I am not 100% sure you can call me one, I like it when Daddy treats me to a Happy meal for being a good girl, I like being able to pout when I get hurt, I find it really difficult it explain how my Little is so I guess the easiest would be "Have questions then ask me and I will try and answer them" Going on with the Saturday story anyways; The party was at a church and was called the Christening! I was not going to be playing much due to my stupid body so I brought my colouring books and markers, and my moose and I was going to sit on my own colouring. Upon arriving for the party nettle cornered me and asked what I was up to for the night besides bowing to her for 2 sets of "Were not worthy" ala Wayne's World, After telling her about my moose and mentioning colouring she immediately jumped upon the opportunity to colour with me (if she had permission of course) I instantly brightened as I was concerned that I would be alone in my colouring/littleness and I wasn't!! I got permission for nettle to colour with me, just as Tango approached me and told me I needed to go get food from Zeher's for the Party, it took 2 trips and a borrowed boy to complete but eventually I got the food for the Party which I do have to say was delicious!! I didn't "play" at the party but I do have to say that a highlight for my night was sitting in a corner to colour with Nettle and Seaun colouring Disney princess's and My Little ponies, Seaun did a great job on his it said she was a Cunt, Slut, and a whore!! The night was an amazing success and besides some minor issues with setup and the other host I cannot wait for the next party!! Daddy and I were unable to play but he said I need to keep on him and we will get to play soon!! I hope to keep exploring what is to come my way, Daddy wants to try Cigar stuff and nettle has stated she will give me a hand with learning how! I am happy that Daddy is trying to understand my little persona and that I am comfortable with him seeing it!

Love
nickle
xoxoxoxoxo

Getting Back into it

So it has been a long time since I have wrote in my journal/diary and I realize that this is something that can assist me in getting my emotions out and helping me communicate. So I have decided that one of the things I will try and do is keep up with journals about my day to day life/activities, as an FYI I may refer to Rob/Master as Daddy, it's just a pet name don't freak out!

So let's begin with Tuesday February 1st 2011:
Yesterday was a very fun/sick day :( I woke up feeling like crap as did Daddy so we both called into work and stayed home. It was a while as we were both asleep until 12 noon but we got roaring after that. Daddy was playing his video game and I coloured and went on Fetlife a whole bunch. Eventually Daddy and I went out to Entertainment Overload looking for a game for me to play on the XBox 360, we found a neat game called "FairyTale Fights" which allows me to play as Snow White, Red Ridding Hood, The naked Emperor, or Jack (from Jack and the Beanstalk), the whole premise of the game is that the four of us are no longer written about as we have been boring and now we are coming to reclaim our stories. The game is pretty awesome, I run around killing things and then skating around in their blood seriously it is awesome!! Daddy was awesome and managed to find me a copy of Rocket Robot on Wheels for the N64 console!! I have been looking for this game for almost 8 years now and we managed to come across a copy yesterday! I was so Happy! We got home and Daddy set it up in the bedroom for me, which works well as it will force me to clean the room in order to play the game!! We had McDonalds for dinner and then we went to K-Stew and J-Stew's house for V night. Hot Amy was cutting hair and nachos were served it was an awesome night!! That’s about it for Last night I had an awesome day with Daddy and cannot wait for more. I will recap our weekend later as it was fun as well!

Love
nickle
xoxoxoxoxo