And I was worried about Wednesday

I began this post at 12:00 pm on Thursday, it is now 1:30 am on Friday

Okay so it looks like any blog posts I am going to be making will be a day late as I am way to exhausted at night to blog :P

Yesterday was Wednesday, after my very long night on Tuesday it was to be an enjoyably relaxing day and for the most part it was! Around 1ish Master and I went to Niagara on the Lake with my mom to have tea and Banoffee pie in the Little Irish Tea Shop that we love!! After that I received a text from Suzy as we were going to be hanging out later that day, she asked me if I was interested in going to a pagan woman's circle, now anyone who knows me well knows that I have been struggling with my "religious beliefs" or should I say lack there of and I have been looking at all religions of the world to figure out if and where I belong in the world. Pagan was something I was immediately drawn to as it identifies with nature and my Norse gods, so I was a little nervous when Suzy asked but after talking to Master he knew I should go as it is something that I was interested in and he figured I would enjoy it, so I agreed.

Suzy came to get me at 5:30 and we went out to shoppers, then Starbucks to talk for a while before we picked up Tasha one of Suzy's friends and might I say a mighty cool girl she is! Then we were off to Rae's house to have the women's circle. Now Runa is the woman I know Suzy goes to for help and she is very close to her and I know Rae and Runa are close but what I didn't grasp was how close Rae and Jen (Masters ex girlfriend and the mother of Aiden one of my awesome step son's!!) are. So I was slightly apprehensive of the evening and what might be said to me. Arrived at the house and met a large number of very friendly ladies all of them quite open and eager to accept people in, I liked that a lot. The ritual that night was an ancestor based one (sorry Suzy but I don't know the terminology yet) and it brought up some very heavy emotions but ones I had been suppressing so it was nice to finally let them out! Also received a message from Runa and I will need to do some deep thinking and soul searching regarding that tidbit.

All in all it was a great time and I am eager to learn more about Suzy and her pagan beliefs!

well I am off to bed so I can write another day late post tomorrow!

nickle
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Tuesdays were long, and hard, but a very fun ride!

Oh so yest I understand it is now Wednesday as I type this but there was no way I was staying up any later than I did to post this and now that I think about it the earliest I was at a computer and able to post was at 3am this morning so regardless it would have been Wednesday anyway so neah!

Anyhoo Tuesday was a very long but good day, we went to Value Village and I found a sleeping beauty barbie to transform, and I found a butter dish! Rob found some books he was looking for but not looking for they just happened to be books he had wanted, Yay books.

We came home and I had a massive headache and wanted to die so I took a shower for an hour ( heh it rhymes) and managed to kick my headache but I was still a little grumpy, good thing he has to put up with me muah ha ha ha!

Went to Perkins for the munch and got a few surprises, first off Evan showed up and I was so excited I have not seen him since he went to Bradford for his culinary placement so yay Evan is back, then who walks in but Neil and Jess I thought I had won the people lottery!

After the munch which ends at the dumb time of 10 Neil, Jess, Rob, Evan, and I went to Timmie's to continue our fun for all!

And it is there that we stayed till 2:15 am, now having said this Neil had to still drive himself and Jess back to Toronto and he had to work at 8 or 9 am eeek (sorry Neil but I can't help but get carried away in your presence )

We drove Evan home and then came home ourselves, I went to bed around 4 and Master well I am pretty sure he never went to bed till 8am ish yah it's going to be a fun Wednesday now!!

nickle
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Mondays

Alright so I need to finally make some decisions and commitments to myself.

First of all I need to work on my self esteem and my personal appearance, now I am not saying that I am huge and fat and need to get lypo but I am not in the shape I want to be and I could stand to lose about 45-55 pounds to stay healthy.

Second I need to get my credit on track and keep it that way. Eventually I am going to need a bigger house and there are some nice ones in Kaths Co-op, so once credit is on track I could get in there as we pay our bills :P

Third I have got to get better at keeping my life and my house clean and organized, I cannot stand the mess and yet I thrive in chaos (weird I know)

I have been reading blogs and falling in love with the bloggers and then it hit me, I am not going to find happiness in my own life if I am always dreaming of another, so I have decided to focus on all the good things I have, My friends, My Family, My wonderful step-Kids, and My amazing Fiance!

Heavy thinking for a Monday Afternoon!

nickle xoxoxoxox

Sappy

Okay going to be a sappy slave for a minuet. Master is going to London Ontario for 3 days and I am stuck here and I miss him already, even though he is sitting in the room as we speak.


Oh sappy nickle sometimes you bug me sometimes, and sometimes I like you, this is neither those times.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
nickle