A Lament For My Missing Camera

Oh where oh where did you go?

We had you at the park and I showed my mom your art,

And yet your not here with me,

Did i not use you enough?

Did I hurt you and make you want to leave?

Please tell me what i did

I miss your buttons and your zoom

And the inability to find cheep memory for you as your an xd card only camera

Should I move on?

Is this what you want?

I will look for you one last time on the 28th but after that I will begin a search for a new companion

Don't let this happen, 

I miss you Camera 

:(

Back in ther Groove

Alright guys I am trying to get back into these things and am having an okay time doing it. Currently the boys are playing rock band with a friend and I am recovering from camping it was amazing, sorry to my friends that I now look at and imagine naked as that is what I am used to seeing the last 5 days!

The boys are on their last leg here as their mom decided that they are going home on the 24th of July ( have I told you she irks me sometimes), Rob is trying to fix a laptop to send with them and it is not going as planned.

So Tease was an amazing experience for us, Master is a completely different person ( in a good way) and I have to say that I am a completely different girl in a good way!!

I am currently working on laundry and made lasagna mmm yummy!!

talk to you guys soon!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxx
nickle

p.s. If anyone has any Ideas where my camera is I would love to hear them!

Trying to be a regular blogger

Okay so it has been a while and I have looked at my blog and gone " you should really post something here" and yet nothing has happened, well I am going to kick myself in the ass and get back on track.

States: As we might or might not know I go to the states to get my groceries with my good good friends Jason, Kath and Diana Stewart, well Jason unfortunately does not have his passport or a nexus pass so I have sudo taken over the role he brought to the trips. It has been good and I have enjoyed having friends that I can talk to like I can the stewart clan!! We cannot wait to have you with us again bud!

Work: As always it sucks and I really only like the people but with the realization that " Some times you have to make your own miracles" it has gotten better!! 

Slave stuff: same old same old, I am coming to terms with my anger and hatred for myself and it is an ongoing process.

Body: Yeah I said I would begin working out again and well...... yeah, I think I am going to get a bike and use it to get into shape, heres hoping it works!!

Home: Okay so I am in dire needs to get the house organized and it is not going the greatest but with all ongoing projects I hope to keep it up. Katie another friend of mine had these awesome blog day for cleaning and making yourself happy and I am going to steal them "stolen Katie :P" 

Misc: Money is driving me crazy, Tease is in 2 days and I am no where near ready, oh and the boys are only here for another 5 short weeks and I feel like I haven't seen them at all, ugh thank you for listening blog seriously it really helps!!

nickle 

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxx

Catch Up (he he he sounds like Ketchup)

Alright so I have been lax with the posting in the last few days and I feel a little bit guilty, not a whole lot but a little. There have been some changes and they are totally worth mentioning!

Iowa: So Rob and Matt went on the yearly (one of a few) road trip to Iowa to pick up Robs 2 oldest sons Anthony and Connor. The trip went well as I stayed at home enjoying the house to myself ( and by that I mean I cleaned). On Saturday I went out for coffee with a friend who I used to work with, then in the evening I went with Jay and Kath to the states for grocery shopping, I didn't get much in the way of groceries as all the money went to the trip with Matt. I did realize while hanging out with Diana their awesome 4 year old daughter that I might consider having a baby at some point in my life, maybe not........ huh anyhoo.

Got home from the trip with Jay and Kath and there was still no Rob and little guys, continued cleaning and went to bed, woke up the next morning and there were kids!! Had a great day with the boys and went to my parents to see them, while there my brother Travis nicked Connors hand and cut his vein or something, all I know is that there was a fountain of blood in my Mothers backyard and there was kids crying, surprisingly not Connor.

Went to the ER and 5 hours later the kid emerged with 3 stitches and a battle wound, if this is how the first day starts this is going to be a very exciting summer.

Spent Monday with the boys, we visited Robs mom and Aiden in Port Colborne, and stayed at home hanging out.

Working on being able to hang out with the boys more and more!

Evan came over last night with his friend Sarah and it was a blast! I forget how much I enjoy when friends are excited to see me, either way I woke up this morning and am not at work thinking about not being at work and it is a conundrum as there is VTO but I don't want to take it, right I really shouldn't take it, hummm maybe just a little, ugh damn you VTO your a fucking gateway drug!!!!!!!

Random Thoughts and Feelings Pretty Heavy for a Friday

So I am more than willing to admit that I am a blog stalker! If someone blogs about another person or there blog roll has some interesting things in it I will jump over and read a little bit and see if it is worth following or if it is a one in a million post. Recently I have been "blog-stalking" my friends blog roll as she has some awesome stuff on it, one of her friends whose previous blog posts I felt were stupid and not worth my time have taken an emotional turn as she deals with the breakup of her marriage and is a single mom to two young children. Now I am easily captivated by blogs of this type, real human emotion and interest, dealing with issues, heartbreak, sickness, even death they captivate me and make me want to keep reading until the story reaches it's end or the blogger stops discussing it. This particular story has me slightly captivated, it is hard to become fully enthralled to the story when it is difficult to read the text (seriously some people have odd design choices) but none the less it is these blogs that I read that force me to sit back and examine my life, my relationship, and my direction that I am going and for these blogs I thank them, it is high time I got over my past and planned for the future by living in the present!!

Seriously where did all that come from, leaving the world of sappy and going back to our regularly scheduled blog! 

Had Diana's birthday Party yesterday and I love hanging out with the Stewart Clan! First off it is so neat to be called Auntie Nicole I love hearing it! There were all sorts of people there, Auntie Hollie, Auntie Rose, Jen, Glenda, Auntie Lauren, Rachel, John, Kaths sister Su, Jamie (Kaths brother in-law), Char (Kaths oldest neice), Kaths Mom, Kaths Dad, Becca (John and Rachel's daughter and clearly Diana's Idol), Jamison ( Kaths nephew), Kath, Jay, Me, oh yah and the birthday girl Diana!!

There were some pretty hilarious moments and it was so cool to put a name to the faces! I was entranced by Kaths Body oil and people laughed at my simplicity! The food was amazing, the cake was Divine, the presents were well received and there was a little bit of naked which helped round everything together! 

Have to say that when I see how happy Kath, Jay, and Diana are together it pulls at the heart strings and makes you realize how much happiness a child can bring into your life!

well we found a way to make it back to freaking sappy ugh!

I am off to try and book the comic con off from work!!

Nickle

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

p.s. Yes even though she drove me nuts the last time she was here I even missed Tori a little bit at the party.

Dark

Have you ever seen your entire street in the dark but you had power in the house? No, well I did today and it's freaking weird. The normal hum of electricity is gone and it is just black silence. I realized that I loved it, the quiet the ability to not hear anything it was amazing.

Well that's my little blurb about enjoying the dark!

xoxoxoxoxoxox
nickle

Vent Much

Alright first a wicked awesome shout out to one of my bestest buddies eva Kath!! she has blogged three weeks in a row!! WOOT

Next I am venting cuz I don't wanna record my radio stuff and I have to, this sucks ugh!!!

Fuck it ALL

that is all for now

nickle out

xoxoxoxoxoxox