Back into it.......

Hey how are you two? Keeping good? oh a cold, that's not good but glad to see you're better! Me? oh yeah lots has been going on, here's an update!

- Last Friday was a pretty eventful day for my cousin. We all went down to Clifton Hill on the falls ( also I need to avoid the beaver tails and the Build a Bear I swear the two are going to put me into more debt), anyways we had gone down to watch the fireworks in the secret garden (one of my fav places in the Falls). We were all excited but no one so much as my cousin who was planning to propose to his girlfriend Tracey and her kids, eep! nerves much :D. So were hanging out there and the fireworks start going off and my brother tells Tracey, Carl, and the kids he wants some photo's of them in front of the fireworks, blah blah we start taking the photo's the kids come stand by me and were taking photos and watching the fire works, and I tell them to look back to their mum and Carl. My brother asks Carl to look at something, Tracey gets distracted (she did this a lot, normally it would bug me but it worked in this situation), when she turns back my cousin is on one knee and proposes! She said yes (although I always doubt it before they do, can't help it), the kids were crying and freaking out and trying to figure out how they were related to us now :) either way it was an awesome night and I couldn't be happier for my cousin! Welcome to the family Tracey, Courtney, and Jordan!

- Saturday was a long ass Wonderland day, not much to recap here I got a seasons pass for next year as I already went a few times this year and am planning on going more next year. We went on Leviathan and Behemoth, as well as all the other rides that we would normally go on (Psyclone, Back Lot Stunt coaster, Drop Tower, Nightmares, RipTide, the raft one with the always stupid long line, and the tea cups to name a few). My brother got us Fast Lane passes which were cool (when we went a month or so ago he and I got them and it was totally worth it) It was a long night, but I did get a WoodStock Cup so that made it pretty awesome!

- Sunday was a trip to Zooz (or Safari Niagara) I honestly don't think I have stopped (BAH! need naps). The zoo was good, it was warm though so we spent a bunch of time by the Splash pad (which I love), we went for Chinese for dinner (Rob and the boys went to Fan Expo so the three of them missed out :[ ) Then we ended the evening at the Regency bar by my house, it was fantastic to just relax and enjoy the evening.

- Monday, I was back at work again but things are getting better so for now I cannot really complain about it. I left early on Monday to help take everyone to the Airport, which was so very sad. Rob and my Dad are going to eventually have a fight, it almost happened when we were figuring out who was sitting with whom on the ride, to be honest I am not sure how I feel about the fight. It needs to happen as they have both been holding back things that need to come out but I really don't want to be in the middle of a fight. The drive to the airport was uneventful, and the goodbye was very hard (I hate not having my family around, but this is just another reason to go back to Northern Ireland next year). I did find this cool thing at the book store in Pearson Airport http://www.andrewsmcmeel.com/pocket-posh.html they are cute game books, I want them all :D! We stopped at the Casablanca Service Center to eat some food (Mom and I got authentic Chitalian, it was an Authentic Italian place run by 2 Chinese guys, thus we have Chitalian). I cried on the way home but it is getting better, knowing he is happy and has people who are supporting him, plus they plan to immigrate in the next 3-5 years so yay!

- Construction! So at the end of my road (the only exit to my road to be exact) they have been installing a roundabout. Now I am familiar with a roundabout and have traveled on one in my life before (thank you UK), the issue I have had is that the company who has been doing the construction has decided to replace the very nice and competent female Signal workers with a giant douche with God complexes. The last week has made some major changes to the roundabout as they are nearing the end stretch of the construction. It is actually functioning as a roundabout before 8am and after 5:30pm when the workers are not there (don't get me started on the people who cannot drive in a roundabout) however every gosh darn morning when I leave I have been yelled at this week, Monday it was a CF so no one knew where to go, Tuesday I followed the signs and the sign worker tried to tell me I didn't know how to use a roundabout I chose to ignore the comment until I heard the "women drivers" uttered from under his breath which led to my stating that I followed the signs so if the signs are not correct then this is not my fault! Wednesday same exact issue, the signs had been changed at some point so I followed them, this time a low level construction worker yells at me for going the wrong way! Well I was having none of it so I went off "I followed your damn signs, if the signs are wrong don't yell at me for christ sake! Also the road's name is MEWBURN not NEWBURN! Do you guys even know what god damn street you're working on!!!! AHHHHHHHH" Then I drove past the very large crater they probably wanted me to avoid :D This morning...the trip was fine! No one yelled at me, and you want to know why? of course you guys do! It's because there were no workers and there was no douche with a God complex and a sign :D The people driving were...well they were horrible but at least no one yelled at me :P

Thats about it in terms of updates, I will probably post more regaling you with stories of Back to School shopping and registration, but I should get back to planning how to nap tonight :P

Caio,
nickle

More details on the work update

Hey you guys!

So a bunch of people have asked for some more details on the positives at work, so here we go! My title is Training Coordinator (it's longer than that but this is the main part), I will be responsible for 3 sites and ensuring that everything related to the Training Department is organized and taken care of. My main responsibility will continue to be the ATP program that we have in 2 of the sites but there will be other responsibilities to come. I cannot thank my boss enough for being awesome and actually taking care of something that his 2 predecessors apparently were unable to or unwilling to actually follow through on.

Thats it for the work update, I have been in a writing mood so I might get more aggressive and you two might see more of me.......well lets hope :)

TTYL
nickle

Update Time

Hey Everyone (I understand there are like 2 of you but you are everyone to me!)

I have not posted in a long butt time so I figured it was about time to update you both on whats been going on in my life :)

Lets start off with the annoying frustrations and then move into the good stuff, Anthony has been in Iowa since early July and I have missed the kid super lots, like a super insane amount. Please do not think I haven't enjoyed with Rob as just the two of us because I have, being able to just relax and not worry about the kidlets has been great but I miss my Kids when they are not around as well. So the annoyance, his mom who I tend to get along with quite well has put off getting his ticket to come home forever (seriously she just bought it) Anthony was supposed to come home the 18th, then it was the 20th, then she tried to say she couldn't do it until the 28th! Well I said no, the whole point of him coming home prior to the 25th was so he could meet my Cousin from Northern Ireland and hang out with us as well as go to Canada's Wonderland with us (he and his family fly home on the 27th), needless to say she bought the ticket for the 24th, not much time but she finally bought it. I get annoyed with this situation as I know they are tight with money, hell I am too but you know when he needed to come home and why don't try to screw us over in this regard! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh *Rant Closed*

Onto the Good stuff!

1. Camp, or "My Camp" as my brother calls it. We went back to Forbidden this year and my whole goal was to relax and just be myself. I have to say for the most part my mission was accomplished, with a few hiccups. Our Camp mates Rose, and TigerLily were as always amazing, I love those women so much they have completely embraced Rob and I and I could ask for better people to camp with! Our other camp mate, my "Sister" in our leather house is also Awesome.....except when she lets this new guy she is seeing completely change her! Honestly we got to camp on Thursday at Turkey Point (close to Simcoe and Port Dover) and she was mopey and moody because he had the nerve to try and tell her he didn't want to date her because of her involvement in the community, seriously if he cannot accept you then don't mope move on he is not worth it! Did she do this? NOPE at 8pm she drove to freaking Oshawa (3-4 hours away) and picked him up and brought him back!! AHHHHH either way that was a dark spot in the camp mate situation (somehow that became a rant I had been holding in but it needed to come out!) Back to the goodness at camp, I did some of my stuff (think pony play, and just having a blast as me) the weather was crap for a few of the days and I had a few accidents on the stairs (I fell down them twice!! Seriously, I was so badly bruised all the Dom's were sad they couldn't take credit for it :P The first fall I could excuse due to heavily water covered wooden steps and flip flops not meshing, the second fall though! I was holding onto the railing and fell again SIDEWAYS because I was holding onto the railing!!!), Rob and I had an amazing re-collaring ceremony and he presented me with a new locking collar (I am not sure the small group in attendance expected me to grumble and swear so much in my collaring ceremony but come on I don't do surprises well and I wouldn't be me if I wasn't a mouthy Brat :P) That pretty much sums up camp a great time and counting down to next year!

2. My cousin Carl (who is more like an older brother than a cousin) has come over to Canada for a 3 week visit! He came on the 7th of August and fly's home on the 27th of August! Rather than coming alone he brought his girlfriend of 6 months Tracy and her 2 kids Courtney 11 and Jordan 10. It has been an awesome time thus far and there have been talks about immigrating to Canada in the future which would be pretty awesome! The trip has been very busy as well with activities and visits to everything in the area. I went with my Mum, TJ, Rob, and little miss Diana to Pearson to pick them up on the 7th, then we were at camp from the 9th-13th so we didn't see them then. I was smart and took my second week of Vacation the week of the 12th so I could spend time with them, and spend time I did :P In that week we went to the following places, Clifton Hill (built a build a bear and they did Wax hands, we got the Adventure pass which even for a local for Date night was awesome only 25 bucks!), Thursday was a trip to Marineland, Friday we came to Work for the FREE appreciation day for employees and their families (DID I MENTION FREE), Saturday they went to Hamilton to the War ship and the beach and the evening was spent at Merritville! Sunday was the Niagara Falls tourist time, we got onto the new We-Go buses and went to Maid of the Mist (Mist! ha more like torrential downpour :P), TableRock (Mmm Timmies), Bus adventure up to the Floral Clock (complete with Monkey-esq tree climbing), and the White water boardwalk adventure! This week I am back to work so I am missing out on the Day Time adventures however I am partaking in the evening excursions, thus far we have gone Frog hunting at the Botanical Gardens (seriously one of my favorite things to do! all catch and release of course :P), and Niagara Go Karts and Mini Putt!! (Diana likes to go fast!) not sure what this evening entails but were having one hell of a blast! I am going to be sad when they leave but my parents are talking about going home next summer so maybe there is a trip there for me as well!

3. Work.. I know what you're thinking "Nicole, really how is it possible work made it into a good category when I have heard you complain all the time about work." well for once I have a positive to state!! As you both know I have been doing a job for the past almost 2 years without getting paid/recognized for it and lets be honest I was at my "frack this here is 2 weeks notice" point, well on Monday I was presented with an Offer letter!!! not only do I now have a title, I am salary, and I got a freaking RAISE!! it's not anything ridiculous and I am sure that at another company I could be doing my job for much more but honestly I like it here, and I love what I do! But I finally get a title!! Guys you have no freaking clue how happy I am!!! Seriously this is probably the last time work will be in the good category but I am so so so so so happy!!

Thus concludes my current update post, I want to keep up blogging but we both know I wont, so to the both of you please continue to be excited when you see that I have managed to post!!

:)
nickle

Getting excited

Not much to post here but wanted to exclaim how happy I am about the coming weeks!

My cousin Carl is flying over from Northern Ireland on August 7, and I am going to camp on August 9!!!!

So excited! I will post more when I am not on my phone/at work!

Organized thoughts......kinda

I like to think of myself as “chaotically organized”, I have the best of intentions when it come to keeping my house clean and organized but to be honest after coming home from work or on the weekends all I really want to do is curl up with my iPad and read a book. Now when I am all curled up and reading my brain is revolting, generally it is screaming “HEY NICKLE!!! GET OFF YOUR BUTT AND CLEAN THE HOUSE, WE BOTH KNOW YOU HAVE THE ENERGY/STAMINA!! DON’T MAKE ME CAUSE ISSUES JUST SO YOU WILL MOVE!!” I tend to try and ignore my brain when it is saying this, muttering to myself that while I know that is what I should be doing I just don’t want to! When I do get into a cleaning/organizing streak well watch out, for however long it lasts I just don’t stop, and it gets to a point where I become Stepford mom crazy about keeping the house clean.

To be honest besides the normal everyday stuff in the house that needs to be taken care of I am not going to get around to anything major until the Spring, and this is not me being Lazy, it’s that because the house were in is heated by our Wood Stove the major area that I want to organize “the sun room and sheds” are out in the –14 cold and I don’t want to bundle up to clean :D I will be making more progress on the bedroom within the next few weeks, I need to get everything washed and then sorted so that I can donate what I do not need, this should help with getting the bedroom a bit better organized. Next will be tackling the linen closet and bathroom, and then finally the boys rooms *Anthony has his own room, and his own organizing and I am not going to try and understand it :)* The kitchen and the living room are both ok, we need to move some things around in order for the flow to be a bit better but to be honest it is working okay right now.

While I am on the topic of organizing, I want to...no need to get our finances in order and start to budget us monthly, if my calculations are close to correct I think were missing something when it comes to where our money is going, if that is the case we should be able to be debt free by next year which will mean we can start looking at the bigger things that we normally are not able to do with the kids. I have started to organize this by keeping a document of all of our bills, my paystubs, and our receipts, this way we should be able to see what is going on to cause this money to slip away. I know that some of the issue is that I am bad for paying bills on time in the past, which meant that when the bill got paid it was more than expected, if I can set up my online banking to just remove what needs to be removed then I will not have an issue with overdraft and we can start to rebuild our credit! I am only 24 it’s time to get this fixed so that way I am not running into the issues I see some of my older friends hitting.

What I really need to do is get myself to a point where I am getting up in a timely manner in the morning so that I can get my day started early, I find when I get up and moving at home before going to work the better I am in the evening, I am not falling asleep at 7pm because I am not staying active.

I think it is time to work out a loose schedule for me, I don’t need the military structure that I had growing up I think that I can function fine with more of a general schedule, a time to get up, a time to go to bed, and then any specific time dependant scheduling (longer than normal chores, like laundry so that way it is done before I go to bed!), I do enjoy having a clean house the feel of accomplishment that I get from achieving this.

I guess while I am organizing my schedule and my finances I should try and organize myself, I need to start improving my health, not because I need to lose weight or I am concerned about how I look but I have a family that is filled with a history of negative health issues. If I start to improve myself now then if I should become sick or develop the issues that are in my family I will be better prepared to deal with them. Kath has spoken of some of the exercise programs she has done and there were a few that intrigued me, things that I can do that are not going to cause me to many time issues nor cause too much of a hiccup in my time schedule, I have access to a gym right by work and I have considered joining since I can stop on my way to work or my way home, I think on my way into work would be best, it would help with waking up and getting my day going!

The revolving door that is my mind this morning has now brought my thoughts to an upcoming fashion/play party that Master and I are attending with our “family”, Janca my sister is selling her corsets and other clothing items and has requested my assistance in modeling them/selling them, then in the evening were going to our first play party in like a year, I am super nervous this is like being a total newb all over again!!

Connor is leaving tomorrow to go home to Iowa until June, I think I will sign off and go spend some time with the little pain in the arse :)

See you tomorrow!

On topic......doubtful!

Today I am thinking about the future, we keep hearing all about how the world is going to end in 2012 and how everything is going to be changing etc etc, personally I don’t believe that the world is going to end, however it has made me focus on my life and my perspective of things.

Stress, I am sick of it! I hate the fact that 90% of the arguments that I end up in with Master is due to the fact that I am stressing out! I am not saying that having arguments in a relationship is bad, everyone fights and there are times that fighting is a good thing :) it is cathartic, gets out the things you have been dying to say, maybe thinking about throwing things at his head is bad but I feel better because of it. Most of the time I will admit that I am generally throwing some sort of a temper tantrum because I am tired and just not feeling good, Master tries his hardest to not provoke me but I still get extra worked up, at which point he will either tell me to stop or he will threaten to send me to my room/the corner. I wish he would just send me to my room or the corner because it just makes me calm down a lot quicker, there is less crying and it also helps me realize that I am not going to get away with any of my crap. I know that sometimes he has a hard time with putting his foot down but it is something were both working on, what we need to really develop is a schedule for me, I do much better when there is structure and rules in place that if I leave them without consulting him I get punished. Because of the changes we have gone through in the last 2 years (moving, having Anthony move in full time, and health problems) we have let a lot of our structure just go poofy, and to be honest I am not the greatest “slave” to begin with.

To clarify when I say I am not the greatest slave to begin with, this is not my normal lack of self esteem talking, I am not putting myself down when I say it this time. What I am saying is that I do not naturally move into the slave role, I need to be forced there and then kept there with his firm hands guiding me, without this I start to revert back to what I call “work Nicole”, she takes no shit, she talks back, and honestly the best plan is to just stay the hell away from her :D I try and revert back into my more submissive side but I am not sure how to “flip the switch”

Lately I have been reading Fet and some blogs that I follow in a bid to show myself that I am not a freak for not being instantly submissive, and that this can be normal especially when I go from 9 hours at work of having to be dominant to coming home to the complete reverse, to be honest I think a majority of my issue is that I end up with all of these feelings and I never actually get to express them. I should be writing in my journal that Master gave me but I haven’t, I expect that I will end up writing in my blog and anything that is too personal to share I will just have set to my view only that way Master can see it but you guys don’t have to hear about my more explicit stuff :D

Wow looking at what I have wrote just shows how off the topic I am getting lately....that's not good :D Onto other updates, I have recently become addicted to Pinterest.com, it’s an online PinBoard that allows you to save and “Pin” ideas, and websites for you to revisit, when I say addicted I mean ADDICTED :D I purchased a sewing machine and am trying to teach myself how to sew more things, I successfully made new Kitchen Curtains, I would like to make new ones for the Bedroom and the Sun porch.

We have moved back to Niagara Falls where I spent my high school years, I like our new place a lot! There is more room, the kitchen is amazing, we actually have storage space, and it came with a lovely covered deck and Hot Tub!! The move has been great, the distance to work was reduced, and the distance to Anthony's school was increased so were pretty much spending the same on travel.

I think at this point where we are is good, Master and I need to get some more of the structure back into our relationship, while I would love to play more, and have more sex, what I really need is the structure and the discipline to be reintroduced.

Well since I have managed to get off topic completely today, I am going to close up for today, I hope to be back tomorrow with some more to say :s

I feel like a darn tree..........

Hey,

So I have decided there is something about myself that really annoys ......well ME! I am so sick of "turning over a new leaf" I really am, I don't know how many countless times I have said the whole " oh I am going to eat better", "oh I am going to start exercising more", and my favorite " I am going to start budgeting and liking myself more" HAHAHAHA. Now don't mistake my rant that these things do not mean something to me, because deep down they do. I would like to eat better, work out, and budget there is no mistaking that the original idea is something that I can completely identify with....but execution that's where I seem to fall behind :)

This is not going to be a very long post as it is 10:30 at night and the one and only goal I seem to have managed to be successful with is going to bed at a decent time but I have decided that I am going to do one thing.... "I will no longer attempt to set ridiculous goals for myself, and will instead adopt a positive 'let the chips fall where they may' attitude"

Alright off to bed now!!

xoxoxoxoxo
Nickle

p.s. A very very happy anniversary to my best friends Mike and Suzy Roy!!